Minus human............

I have been struggling with my sleep for the past few days. Certain things have happened in the past few days that have thrown my life in a disarray.

It’s nothing new. It’s happened before. Each time, it hurts just as much. It takes longer than I thought to get used to the sting.

It’s been a long time since I’ve been sober. It’s been a long time since I’ve been happy. Shit, I can’t remember the last time I was happy… or sober!

2 AM and I cry because I’m still awake,
Can you help me unravel my latest mistake?,
I still love him. Winter just wasn’t my season”
Yeah we walk through the doors, so accusing their eyes
Like they have any right at all to criticize,
Hypocrites. You’re all here for the very same reason

Because you can’t jump the track, we’re like cars on a cable
And life’s like an hourglass, glued to the table
No one can find the rewind button,
So cradle your head in your hands
And breathe… just breathe,

May I turn 24 on the base at Fort Bliss
“Just a day” I said down to the flask in my fist,
“Ain’t been sober, since maybe October of last year.”
Here in town you can tell I’ve been down for a while,
But, my God, it’s so beautiful when the boy smiles,
Wanna hold him. Maybe I’ll just sing about it.

There’s a light at each end of this tunnel,
You shout because you’re just as far in as you’ll ever be out
And these mistakes you’ve made, you’ll just make them again
If you only try turning around.

2 AM and I’m still awake, writing a song
If I get it all down on paper, it’s no longer inside of me,
Threatening the life it belongs to
And I feel like I’m naked in front of the crowd
Because these words are my diary, screaming out loud
And I know that you’ll use them, however you want to

But you can’t jump the track, we’re like cars on a cable,
And life’s like an hourglass, glued to the table
No one can find the rewind button now
Sing it if you understand.
and breathe, just breathe

*Song adapted from Anna Nallick’s version.