The two of me

I am jealous
and greedy
and angry
and I hurt

I love
and I hate
I mean well
but manipulate

I am confused
and riddled by doubt

Of course I am
I am after all
human

and yet
I long
I yearn
I aspire

to be compassionate
to be creative
to be whole
to be infinite

I am spiritual too
I am two
but one
must live with the other
with compassion
and forgiveness
till I am only one
but till then,
I must learn to be two.

I am after all
only human